The 2002 Chicago Marathon: "He Ain't Heavy, He's My
Brother"
In the Spring of 2002, busy college student, husband, father, and
Kansas City resident Matthew Westhoff called his older brother John (then
living in Arkansas) and suggested that they use Matt's free airline vouchers to
meet in Chicago and run 26.2 miles together. The casual observer might be
tempted to suggest a "better" use for a couple of free flights (i.e.
one that does not involve pain)--but that would be a mistake. With Matt's
curiosity piqued by John's Marathon debuts at Mississippi and Nashville, John
seized the opportunity for fraternal-bonding-through-shared-suffering and
maybe--just maybe, the chance to win a convert within his own family to the
mystery, wonder and Zen-like state of heightened awareness achieved by
long-distance running (not to mentioned the health benefits). And so it
began--abandoning their wives and children, the brothers set out to go
where no (Westhoff) brothers had gone before. This is their story...
I have been running (and subscribing to Runner's World Magazine) long enough
now to recognize on site many elite marathoners. In the marathon
world, an elite athlete is defined as anyone who has a realistic chance of
winning, or even finishing in the top 25. They are easy to spot because
they generally have corporate sponsors (I think they get shoe discounts or
something) and they are running in front of everyone else, going really, really
fast. They do not appear on Oprah and talk about how they wanted to run a
marathon to "heal" or "start a new life." Like all
professional athletes, they're running for big money. Anyhoo, Matt and I
seized the opportunity to pose as Khalid Khannouchi, the world record holder for
the marathon and four-time winner of the Chicago marathon (note Matt leisurely
drinking a soda as he crosses the finish line).
The above photo was taken at the "fitness expo," our first stop
after checking into the hotel. The expo is the place you pick up your bib
number, T-shirt and electronic chip (used to record your times), as well as a
bunch of free goodies (and advertisements) provided by the makers of
various and sundry products targeting the "fitness crowd." Let's
just say you have never seen so many sports bras in your life. They sell
them there too.
In the background of the above picture, on the floor you can see a big screen
where they looped a film showing the marathon course as filmed from a moving car
and speed up so that the whole thing takes about 5 minutes. It was the
main attraction, at any given time there were a hundred people or so standing there
watching. As Matt and I watched I provided a running narrative of what I
thought would be going through his brain as the number of miles flashed on the
top of the screen (e.g., Mile 2: "Hey, I'm running a marathon! Yippie!"
Mile 13: "Uh...okay," Mile 18: "John, I'm going to kill
you..." etc). After the expo we took the subway back to the hotel to
drop off our stuff and get dinner at a placed called "The
Grillroom." At first we thought that the prices were reasonable
until Matt asked what came with the steak and the waitress responded with
"a plate." (Steak is like a Hotel room in that it is a great
paradox: the more you pay for it, the less likely it is to come with anything
extra. Stay at the Holiday Inn Express and you get free appetizers in the
lobby in the evening and a complementary breakfast and paper. Stay at a
four-star and you can't park your own car, you have to tip and they don't even
put an ironing board in your room, though they would be "happy" to
pick up your clothes for dry cleaning. No free breakfast but a $6 glass of
orange juice delivered to your room by a guy in a tuxedo.) I don't know if
Matt was telling the truth when he didn't order a side and told the waitress
that he "just wanted to eat the meat," or if he was trying to cut me a
break since it was my treat. I got a salad.
Race day was perfect weather-wise. Cool and not a cloud in the
sky. Our hotel was within easy walking distance of the starting
line. Shortly after we arrived I made Matt wait in line with me for the
port-a-potties. He didn't have to "go" but I assured him that by
the time we got to the front of the line he would have to. He did.
What are brothers for? The crowd was massive. The race was capped at
37,500 runners. With several thousand less than that actually showing up,
it was still an awesome site to behold. We estimated that by the time we
got to the starting line after the gun went off, the elites had already covered
about three miles.
Both of our pre-marathon training programs had been sabotaged by a phenomenon
commonly known as "reality." Other responsibilities had made it
difficult to stick to a running schedule. In addition, Matt had been plagued by
knee pain in the weeks prior to the race. I had advised him not to run at
all for the two weeks before, so it was a mystery to us both how his knee would
hold up. Unfortunately, he had pain in the first mile. Now, if my
Grandma Westhoff is reading this she is no doubt shaking her head.
She is convinced that marathon running is an unnatural and unhealthy activity
which ultimately leads it's fanatical adherents down the primrose path to
heart failure, short stature and premature death. I'm sure that as
she reads on she will be affirmed that I have in some way contributed to the permanent crippling of my younger brother. Not so fast
Grandma. In discussing his preparation before the race, Matt and I both
concluded that he had violated a couple of basic rules and that his injury was
predictable if not inevitable. This combined with my clinical assessment
of his injury leaves me convinced that not only will Matt some day walk
again (without pain, I mean) but that his running future is bright. That
was of course of no comfort to Matt as we began pounding out 26.2 big ones.
As promised, I stayed with Matt the entire race though his pain forced us to
keep a much slower pace than I am used to. As a consequence this marathon
was a completely different emotional experience than my previous ones. As
the race went on and we fell further and further behind my natural pace, I felt
more and more like an imposter of sorts. Having learned my lesson at
Nashville, in preparation for this race I had written "JOHN" on my
shirt in six inch high letters. It worked better than I could have
hoped. I felt like a minor celebrity. For the entire race
enthusiastic strangers on the side of the road knew my name and were
yelling "GO John!" or "keep going JOHN, you can do
it!" I have to admit that it was particularly pleasant when women
would yell out what would in any other context be construed as a cat-call:
"Woooooooo, JOHN!!! Looking GOOD!!!"
But I was living a lie. I was fine, and a little embarrassed at
all the cheering. At our pace, I never even hit the wall. Here I
was, getting all of this nice but unnecessary support while Matt, my own flesh
and blood suffered right beside me in total anonymity. Sure, he
could partake in the general goodwill of the crowd, he could pretend the giant
poster-board can of "Mid-west Style Whoop-Ass" at mile 16 was just for
him; but never once did anyone yell "Go Matt," or even, "Go
guy-in-the-blue-shirt!" People...if you ever run a marathon,
please, write your name on your shirt.
I had no doubt Matt would finish, I just felt so bad knowing what he must be
going through--sad that he couldn't unreservedly enjoy the first and most fun
miles. I wanted to be supportive, to make it a positive experience so when
we were done he wouldn't say "I'm never doing that again," a not
uncommon sentiment among first (and last) time marathoners. I ran and I
worried.
Please excuse the poor quality of the race photos. The photographers
probably had a hunch I would try and rip their photos off the web so they were
careful not to make them any bigger than an inch across.
We finished in 5:03, a respectable time considering the number of times
we had to stop and walk when Matt's pain became unbearable. After we
crossed I was nervous to hear the final verdict. Could I look forward to
future running-bonding with my brother or would this be his last indulgence of
my new-found marathon madness? Then Matt spoke: "I could totally do
that faster--I need to loose some weight." I smiled. Mission
accomplished. "Next time..." he continued "we have to get
Daniel out here." "Ah yes... Daniel, our youngest
brother," I thought. "And then Mom," I said.
"Yes... of course, Mom" he smiled knowingly. Somewhere, in
the distance, a dog barked.
Note: Ahem. I got a little literary in that last paragraph.
Excuse me. It wasn't exactly like that, but you get the idea. It suffices
to say that we're planning our next race. Incidentally, this account would
be incomplete if I failed to mention that after the run we went to Gino's East
for the definitive, world-famous Chicago-style pizza. Note the bewildered
look of epicurean joy on Matt's face as he anticipates dining on Chicago's
finest deep-dish.
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